conversations in my head..

2011-12-18T19:57:00.004+08:00

2011-03-28T15:15:00.001+08:00

He said, she said.
Time apart will reignite a waning flame.
Time apart will smother a withering flame.
She hoped, he hoped.

Wreckless

2011-03-21T22:35:00.001+08:00

Let's go back there
Let's take it there

When you
Didn't know me
Didn't need me
Wanted to touch me
Couldn't leave me

I couldn't know how
Far it would go
I couldn't know if
This was for sure

We just could not
We just could not
Get enough of it baby
Let's go;

Have that wreckless love
That crazy love
That off the wall won't stop till I get enough kind of love
I need that love
So baby, let's go.

2011-01-13T15:47:00.003+08:00

Where I'm at right now, I ain't got no tolerance
for something stupid, or hatred, or envy.
If you bringing any one of those,
how bout you leave me alone?

Leave me alone, this isn't gonna work..
Don't call me on the phone because I'm all out of words..
I'll face the unknown thinking about all the ways that I've grown..

I don't believe Adam and Eve spent every goddamn day together,
If you give me some room, there will be room enough for two..

So leave me by my lonely..

Hometown

2011-01-13T15:26:00.001+08:00

In my hometown, memories are fresh.
I like it in the city when two worlds collide.

2011-01-05T18:34:00.001+08:00

and in my ears my blood is just roaring, cause he's the only one I've ever wanted. I suppose that's just the way it is.

2011-01-04T15:54:00.001+08:00

Unresolved wishes for you and me,
Or a new plot twist for the storyboard?

Decisions decisions..

Must.Lose.Weight.

2010-12-19T16:18:00.001+08:00

Oh raya, why do you torment me so?

With the early, not to mention long, days..
With all the constant face stuffing food madness..

I'm glad the weekend's over.
Back to work now.

Ok go.

2010-12-19T16:17:00.001+08:00

I wish you were here..
Just to enjoy my boring existence..

Oh madness.. Take a chill pill will you?

2010-09-04T02:55:00.001+08:00

Eid's around the corner and
soooo many things to do....

But of cos, let's throw an exam
In the mix shall we?

Ai pro miser

2010-09-02T22:38:00.001+08:00

Let's start afresh shall we?
New app. New lease. New zeal.

Ok go.

Well hello there..

2010-09-02T11:04:00.001+08:00

2010-05-12T20:25:00.002+08:00

Just found out that i've been singing along "suddenly it crossed my heart"...
when actually its "sign your name across my heart"...

"Sign Your Name"

2010-03-15T11:50:00.002+08:00

why am i surrounded by stupidity?
why won't you shut up? why does she talk like that?

why why why?

2009-12-21T19:08:00.002+08:00

it's been a while now..but everything's the same..
nothing seems to coerce me in an ideal direction..
i'm in the same boat, floating the same wave..

what i need now is not a new you..
what i need now is a new perspective on the old you..
opening up my eyes now..looking for a new wind..

2009-11-23T05:06:00.000+08:00

sometimes its just not worth it..

2009-10-30T03:15:00.002+08:00

they call him mr personality because he's so ugly..

actually i dun think he's ugly..he's not...really..
he has his charms...he has tht smile...kills me all the time..

of cos i would say all this now..
when its all peachy..

check in again when he's done with me by year's end..
when he's chewed me up and spit me out..

but for now, i'm allowing myself to fall...again...
with caution of cos...call it an experiment of sorts..

and let this be a reminder to my silly self..
that if i choose to fall i shud be ready to pick up the pieces too..

2009-07-17T16:12:00.000+08:00

3 months and i didnt get anywhere..
3 months i've been craving for more..
3 months i kept wondering what next..
3 months and now i'm on my own..

2009-03-31T15:57:00.000+08:00

Out, damn'd spot! out, I say!

2008-12-21T04:36:00.001+08:00

:)

oh the things i've been up to this past month..
could put a hollywood drama to shame..
only thing missing wud be drugs..
oh wait...i had lots of doc prescribed meds...
tht cud count..no?

Note to self, it's not too late to start over..
2009 is just ard the corner.. yes a whole new year!
for you to hopefully not screw up..
wasted away too much already...too much...
lets pull up our socks shall we?

study..
be good..
manage ur god damn time!
stop procrastinating..
pluck out the weeds and lets look for flowers this time..
(make that wild blooms)
and be good..puhlease be good..

Mr B, thanks for a good time..well 2 good times..;)
Mr S, keep trying...you might just get a chance..
Mr T, ur nice..real nice..but nice is not enough?
Mr P, dun mess ard..pls dun..

2008-11-13T04:04:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck..
how the hell did i manage to screw tht up!?

shud have just kept mum..
shut the trap before the crap leaks out..

arghhhh!!

goodbye mr. personality!

2008-11-12T03:06:00.000+08:00

*snap* and he's gone!
macam biskut si pak mat senthul tu..

stupid to think it was gonna be different..
stupid..stupid..stupid..stupid..

*deep breath..move along*
or as tim gunn wud prod, "carry on.."

you never fail to pull me in..
tangle me up in ur mess..
fool me with ur blissful ignorance..
never again..never again..

2008-10-22T10:56:00.000+08:00

he's here..

2008-10-12T21:16:00.000+08:00

if you don't noe where you're going,
any road will take you there..

i hate feeling this way,
i hate being caught off-guard as it creeps up on me..
defenseless as it consumes me, weak as it controls me..

aimless..
its a bottomless pit and im falling..
its a one way street and there's no turning back..

and i thot i was walking on my own 2 feet juz fine..

2008-10-04T01:24:00.000+08:00

without fail,
the obscure azure flame bleeds from within..

withering away the layers..
crumbling down the walls..

the numbness subsides
and the scorching fury takes over..

2008-09-19T00:16:00.000+08:00

i think its time..
to keep up with the world..
we dun want to get left behind now, do we?

its not enough to juz know the who's who..
need to noe the what's what and the where's where..

and of cos...most importantly..
the why's why..

first why to consider: why not?

2008-09-16T01:54:00.000+08:00

"anyone who had a heart
would take me
in his arms and
love me too..

you..
couldnt really have a heart
and hurt me
like you hurt me
and be so untrue.."

2008-08-30T02:21:00.000+08:00

so i did it again..
succumb to silly whims..
y do u coax me so when
all it boils down to is that..

dun push me..
i might fall..
yes, fall into it..
the very hole i dug..

2008-08-30T00:41:00.000+08:00

y do i keep digging the same hole?

2008-08-25T01:53:00.001+08:00

whoopedoo..

2008-08-22T17:08:00.001+08:00

so i was sitting there..eating..
and i could feel the eyes scrutinizing my every bite, chew, swallow..

wat do you want from me?
yes i cower in your presence..
you ultimately hold the power over e-v-e-r-y-thing..

yes i admit defeat..
but i will not live under your sovereignty..
i am paving my way..digging through..
keeping afloat..and i will come out the other side..

however long it may take..
i will not rest till im out of ur grasp..

2008-08-22T03:23:00.000+08:00

so talk already..